Happy New Year and.....

And happy birthday to myself too. Heh. Somehow...just somehow...I didnt really get the countdown mood this year. I was just following ziyi to be self-high when the fireworks came out. I couldn't feel the excitement this year, unfortunately. Maybe I've seen too many countdowns....or maybe I don't really yearn for a new year that much. I was trying to recite the resolutions I've made for 2009 in my head during the fireworks but it just didn't work out. I stopped after..."I must study hard". Dubious.

But anyway. Still lots of thanks to the Ziyi, Kok Leong, Lemin, Shi Rui, Si Hui, Sherman and brother Koh and Chun for singing a birthday song (embarrassingly) in public and (oh) the birthday card! Altho there are definitely less 4C people who turned up for the countdown this year, I certainly appreciate these bunch of people so much more. Thanks guys :D


I remember I used to count the no. of birthday smses I received on the today of previous years but somehow for this year, I completely skipped it. Probably because I've realised that I've been such an egoistic asshole for the past few years and it's time I put a stop to this. I've partly realised (means still trying to realise) that it's not the quantity that counts really. Some people might have stop appreciating you. But definitely, there're others who start to appreciate you more. The people you appreciate may not be the people who appreciates you. On the contary, the people you have yet to appreciate could be the ones that really appreciates you afterall. It's the simple actions, such as remembering your birthday, that really show that they care and concern for you. For far too long, I've been neglecting the ones around me. I've never managed to remember most of my close friends' birthdays. Putting it crudely, I've not made an attempt to find them out. Yet, I expected them to return the exact opposite. I expected presents and well-wishes. I was disappointed if I didn't receive them. But I had never really realised that what goes around (indeed) comes around until today. And I suppose I was just getting my desserts for not treating people with sincerity. It's rather sad I realised it only today.......

Hmm...I think I could go on with this self-reflection for hours but it's like 3.30am in the morning and I had better go sleep (lest I lose badly in the frag party at my house tomorrow). And on a lighter note, please don't flame my blog. I'm open to negotiations. Thanks. Happy New Year.