I'm tired

Mentally. Physically. Emotionally.

The past 2 weeks has indeed proven to be too much. I think I really overestimated myself by covering 6 events in 2 weeks - 1 Soccer match, 2 Touch Rug match, SC Speech Day, National Junior Canoeing Championship and Track & Field Finals. I think the photos got less and less good/creative towards the end of the 2 weeks. I was so eager to finish my Track&Field duty I didn't bothered trying out different perspectives. Just did it the CP way...portraits and more portraits. Meanwhile, my forefinger refused to pressed the shutter button during the final Touch Rug match hence resulting in many missed moments. Trust me, I was swearing alot before half-time.

I think the mass no. of events has really taken a toll on my health and studies. I felt bloody tired yesterday night after covering Track&Field. The walk from CCK Stadium back home totally felt like an eternity. It didn't help that my bag had 4.3kg full of equipment. My studies has also suffered because of numerous missed tutorials and lectures and lack of energy to study everyday. Tutorials remain untouched. Sometimes even without the name filled in at the cover page.

I think event coverage has come to an end for me (except for the more major events). My CT was right. I shouldn't tank all the events and not give my juniors a chance to learn. Besides, I think it's really time to start getting the juniors to become independent. Experience counts. :)

Alright I guess I'm signing off here. I'm gg to bed kinda early today to make up for my lack of sleep the previous night. Nights.

I guess the feeling has faded. I'm tired. Really. Probably it's time to let go.

Succour

Today sucks. My CT just told me that I've recently been classified as "At Risk" for my studies. The reason being I failed most of my tests (although she claims I failed all...). And that totally added 100% of emoness to my already emo day because PTM is friday. I do regret not studying for some of my tests, esp the recent Physics test, but seriously I don't have time to study for some other tests. Especially when they're scattered about at random dates. I think the school should just have the CT before June hols like what HC & AC did. I mean...at least we can study for the tests as a whole instead of just wasting one whole bloody day studying a few chapters of each subject every other week. Besides, CT is always a better gauge than some random tests (Yes I know this is an assumption). Honestly, I would prefer exams anytime over tests. At least I know it's coming and I can get myself into the exam mood beforehand. Tests sound so optional. Anyway dammit I shall see what soup I get myself into after Friday before I decide to get anymore emo. But one thing for sure: I'm going to pass that bloody maths test on 7th May.

Life sucks without you.

Absence makes the Heart grows fonder...

:(

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Haiz. I seem to have lost all my attention in my studies nowadays. I haven't been able to really settle down into doing my homework on weekends ever since I came back from Maldives. Probably it's the photog. Back to back event coverage & photog outings hasn't been doing good to my concentration at all. I must admit I've become less able to multi-task recently. For eg I used to be able to think of things while walking last time but now when I walk, my mind just thinks "walk" & nothing else. And I get flustered very easily if I've 2 important tasks at hand simultaneously. Something is eating up my concentration...and it's real bad. I need to return back to the days when my weekends were solely meant for homework. Boring but totally essential. I need to review my Resolutions2009. Soon. NOW! I need like 2 weeks of NIL activities to settle down. I need to learn when to put aside photog. I need to tear down my drums and throw away my drumsticks. I need to get my HP line cut so I don't even think about sms-ing. I need a pair of mugger specs like 8)this & get my ass settled on my mugger chair. I really wish that sometimes my willpower to study isn't so dependent on my mood. It's kind of worrying this year is the final year. I'm gg back to study again

PlainSunrise

Sunrise. This morning 7.09am. HDR. 3 pics composite....batt spoilt halfway while taking the sunset...click for larger image

Somehow, I feel quite enthu abit taking photos nowadays. I would never have as much motivation as today to wake up at 6am to take photos normally. Usually I just sleep past sunrise and go heck....Probably I'm just inspired. :) Ok that's all. Random eh.