It boils down to this

Oh well...I guess everyone is excited about tmr. Some worried. Some afraid. I can't exactly point out how I'm feeling right now. There's certainly anticipation but let's just say that I got a feeling I won't be scoring as many As as I would wish to have.

National exams are always crazy. It's the time where the underdogs unexpectedly do very well and the usual winners start weeping and complaining why didn't they work hard when they couldn't have work any harder. I wouldn't consider myself an underdog or consistent performer so I guess my grades will be easy to predict. Afterall, I managed to guess my O's score (although geog was a total shocker and saver). And that's what get me worried. I keep telling my worried friends "laxing man, what is done is done" and myself that I've nothing to regret since I've tried my best. But the fact remains that "I tried my best" is never a phrase you would love to use (on yourself) when you receive your result slip. Esp when everyone around you start flaunting or talking about the multiple no. of As they have. Pride matters. Future matters even more.

After the NTU Talk last Saturday, I told myself that if I were to ever get crappy grades, I would just happily skip to ADM (Art, Design & Media). But I know that deep down inside, I'm not prepared for it. To embrace Art when it has never been the focus of my life for the past 18 years (until recently). I would definitely not want a score to allow me to consider this option. My pride would take a terrible beating and my future would be ruined, well in a sense. I need a score good enough of my own expectations of myself or even better (thank god) to step out of that hall feeling good enough to tell others my grades.

I hereby pray for everyone around me, esp my best pals, and myself to do well. I would be really thankful if I do not see any tearing faces (including mine) tmr. God bless.