Everybody's playing and I don't feel the same

Ok I've got rid of my 2.8cm iPod stratch post because I finally settled down and realised I shouldn't be fussing over some insignificant part of my life.

Tomorrow. Tuesday. Paul & Wen Song will be playing LIVE on Live N' Loaded on Channel 5 8:30pm. Friday. Zhi Ler (and Paul) and Caleb's band will be for Talentime 09. All my best friends are playing gigs while I watch from the stands or stone away. It's going to sound abit embarrassing but I'm saying it anyway. I'm Jealous. :/

Seriously, I can't help but express great disappointment for my own band 3:45. We did really well for Rock Night 08. But just when we got recognized and were offered to play for gigs, we lacked the motivation and commitment to do so. Gigs that we missed out? Senior Graduation Night, Live N' Loaded, Talentime and Bandage 09 (I bet you guys didn't know). I'm really thankful that 3:45 helped me build my drumming skills and exposed me to performances. In fact, 3:45 was the perfect stepping stone for me; until recently.

It was only a few months back I realised that everyone had different priorities and interest level towards music & performances. I wanted to jam, to perform and to build a name for 3:45 in local youth music. (In fact, I really wished that one day we could play like Redeeming The Riot, Ten Minutes Late and Fire Away, Samson! and gain publicity amongst the youths of Singapore at least.) Meanwhile, most of the rest placed CCAs and studies as first priority. That was when I finally realised the reason behind bands breaking up.

It's really not easy finding the ideal people to form a band. Firstly, you have to find people of similar musical influences. Secondly, gauge their musical proficiency. And finally, make sure these people stick with you till the very end. Finding capable people who shares your musical influences is already tough enough. Making the band last? It depends a lot on fate. Starting 3:45 was pretty much an error. Firstly, we didn't really have a genre all of us really liked to perform. We maybe playing simple rock or whatever progressive rock but I truly enjoyed was pop punk/energetic rock. Meanwhile, Kah Lok preferred solo artists like David Cook and Chris Daughtry. Secondly, (honestly speaking) we were all pretty noob at our instruments at the beginning. But as time goes on, I felt that the gap between our instrumental proficiency was getting larger and larger; and sometimes this makes some of us pissed at each other. Lastly? Let's not talk about it.

It is kind of ironic how Zestin was telling me one year ago that my band was tight (as in...bonded not the timing) and now 3:45 is tearing apart. One year ago, we were superglue tight. Half a year later, cracks started to appear. And exactly one year later, we fell apart; going our seperate ways. What a difference one year can make...haiz. I remember enjoying singing Unintended and The Remedy outside LT 5 together with Zhi Ler on the acoustic guitar after Talentime 08 rehearsals. The rehearsal night was cold and long but our hearts were burning with passion. I truly enjoyed those moments of pure fun and laughter I had with 3:45. Unfortunately, it turned out that Talentime 08 was one of our worst performances ever. Luckily, it wasn't too long before we experience the ecstasy of playing music again. Rock Night 08 was the most memorable performance I had. We worked really really hard for it. And we reaped the fruits of success. RN08 can only be describe as... 30 minutes of magic.

However, that is the past. Now that Zhi Ler has left to play bass for Caleb's band, I'm seriously disappointed at myself for not playing while everyone else around me is doing so. I want to start a new band but I can't find the right people. Life seems pretty dull now without jamming and gigging. Haiz.