I was feeling all emo when I woke up at 1030am this morning. Thoughts about ystd Talentime performances still ring in my head. I was planning to emo on my blog ystd but I just couldn't pen my thoughts down.
Talentime 09 could be seen as a weird experience for me. For the first time since I started a band, I've never watched a (band) performance; I was always the one playing up there. But ystd I found myself sitted at the front row of the Ngee Ann Kongsi PAC cheering my friends on.
After the performances, I felt really emo on the bus back home. Zhi Ler was saying that Talentime might be the last performance the J2s are going for and I couldn't help but think: Is this the end of it all for me? I really really don't wish to end this year by just mugging for As. It would be such a waste. I want to perform. I want to jam. But the ugly fact is I'm neither good enough nor confident enough. Throughout the past 1 year, I've been performing within my comfort zone and working with not-so-talented but hardworking people. I want to play with capable and music-loving people like Ashwyn and Caleb but I'm afraid I can't cope with their demands. Although both Zestin and I have been playing drums for around the same time, Zestin is such an excellent drummer with so much more performing experiences than me. Learning and perfecting 5 songs within 1 day is definitely not what I'm capable of. That's the reason why I'm in such a dilemma.
Should I break out of my comfort zone and give myself a shot at playing with more capable musicians or should I break out of this whole music thing and concentrate on my As?
Btw here's a song that I love alot by a Singapore veteran band Plainsunset. It's called River Song.
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